I look like a monster

I used to be beautiful, but now I look like a monster. My teeth, or lack thereof rather, affect every single aspect of my life. I mean your smile is really the first thing that gets noticed when you are speaking to someone and usually the main thing that someone will remember you for. I had braces when I was a teenager, and I hated those braces and everything that came with them. The day that I got them removed was so exciting and from that day on I always got compliments on my teeth and my smile. That made me feel so confident and beautiful. Nowadays I try to hide my mouth, teeth, and smile so that I don't have to deal with hearing the rude comments that people make or people laughing at me. It's absolutely horrible and every time something like this happens, I just want to die. Or at least the ground could open up and swallow me so I don't have to suffer embarrassment and self-loathing. I thought that I was going to be able to get my teeth pulled this year and get dentures. I was so excited, but when I went to the dentist, I found out how much they are charging for these services and I knew that I could not afford to make my dream come true. If I could get some help so that I would be able to smile again and not feel like I have to hide my face from the world. There are so many things that I want to do, but I don't because I'm so embarrassed of myself. If I were able to get my teeth fixed, I would be able to accomplish anything in this world because of the confidence that I would regain. I guess that sharing this with others and pleading for help from anywhere and anyone is my last ditch effort to feel normal again.