Please help me live again

I have pretty much lived my whole life with bad teeth. We were not children who were taken to the dentist because we just couldn't afford it. I first noticed I needed to see a dentist in middle school but my mom didn't take me. By the time I got to high school I was really having problems. My dad took me to a dentist who removed three of my front teeth and three back teeth and made me a partial. I wore that partial as more of teeth started to decay. It was then that I started a life of hiding my smile. I still have that same partial today. I have such a fear of dentists now because of anxiety and because I don't want to be looked at and judged. I am at the point now that fear is out the window because I want to live again and they say I won't feel a thing. It's mostly the sounds that give me anxiety. My husband was in a head on collision in February and was released May 8th. He broke all his extremities, his hip, had part of his colon removed, both lungs bruised, and face cracked from the airbag.  All of that in addition to him fighting end stage kidney failure. When they took him off the ventilator and woke him up, I wanted to give him the biggest smile ever and I couldn't I have spent years perfecting an almost toothless smile. Implants will allow me to be free from a mask that I still wear to hide my teeth. I have lost so many loved ones and haven't been able to show my respect because I am so embarrassed. I make excuses for every family event. I am a prisoner in my own body. I need to have surgery on my right shoulder and I refuse to because I don't want anyone judging or making fun of me while I'm under. My life is truly becoming unbearable. I am begging for help, I just want to smile and feel like a human being. I'm always looking at people's teeth wishing they were mine. Please, please, please help.